CHAPTER 166 – JUST PEACHY, WITH A SIDE OF
KEEN
NOVEMBER 14,
2009
FRIDAY
11:30PM
"You
okay?" Miranda asked, watching Spike wince as he walked back behind
the bar, favoring one leg.
"Yeah,
'm fine. Just got banged up a bit."
She
shook her head at his bravado.
"More
than a little bit, from the looks of things."
He just
shrugged.
There
had been more than the usual amount of demons deciding to come in
tonight. Fights had broken out among some warring clans who both
happened to decide that Ipso Facto, Too was to be their
watering hole for the night. They'd already had to throw out half a
dozen or so demons, which didn't take kindly to being asked to
leave. Spike, along with Mike, who’d also moved up to L.A., had to
fight to defend their right to do so. Wiry and quick, Spike had
proven to be more than adequate as a demon fighter, besting those
much larger and stronger than he. However, it was beginning to take
its toll, and Miranda was worried.
"Why
don't you take the rest of the night off?" she
suggested.
William
shot her a dirty look, "Yeah, I'll do that, Miranda. I'll just leave
you to fight for me; that sounds about right," he
scoffed.
"There
probably won't be any more trouble, and Mike, me, and my handy-dandy
little zapper here can take care of most problems," she said,
pulling the device out of her pocket, and pressing the button to
show him the electrical discharge.
"I'm
fine," he insisted.
"We got
along before you came, you know."
"Yeah,
well luv, that was San Diego, not the same thing. Remember
you're the one who wanted the extra muscle; it’s why you
hired me, to kill things, not because I can serve a mean drink. We
both know it’s why I'm here, so don't make it like it's anything
else."
"Well,
that may be so, but if you get yourself killed, you won't be any
help to me then, will you? Anyway, I know why I hired you,
but do you know why you accepted? Really know? I don’t know what
issues you’re trying to work out are, but if you have a death wish,
go work it out somewhere else! I don’t want it on my conscience,"
she said, turning away so he couldn’t see how upset she was getting.
Miranda
knew that there was a lot, a whole world of lot, which she
didn’t know about Spike. She also knew that his heart belonged to
another woman, and probably always would, even if he wasn’t with
her. Although it had stung somewhat to have her earlier advances
gently rebuked by him, it didn’t stop her from being concerned for
him. If anything, Spike had turned out to be a good friend, and
ally.
"I
won't get myself killed," he said, grumping.
Sighing, when she didn’t answer, he walked over to
her, "I won’t," he said softly, "promise."
"Fine,"
Miranda said, turning to face him, "stay on the rest of tonight, but
starting tomorrow, you're off for a few days."
His
eyes flashed anger, as he downed half the glass of whiskey he'd just
poured himself in one long drink.
"That's
not necessary," he said tersely.
"Yes
Spike, it is! You haven't taken a day off in nearly 2 weeks. You're
not working tomorrow or Monday. Get out of the basement for a while,
go home to San Marcos, go up to the mountains, just get the hell out
of here for a while!"
He was
about to argue with her, but he didn't have the energy. He gave her
a curt nod, then went back to work.
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10:00PM
As
she’d passed the last exit which she could take back towards Julian,
Buffy’s internal debate ended as to whether she was going to go to
Los Angeles tonight, or waiting until tomorrow.
Pulling
into a gas station, she topped off her tank, added a quarter quart
of oil, and bought a map of Los Angeles, two large espresso cafe
lattes, and a bar of dark chocolate for the trip. Although
adrenaline was surging through her at the thought of seeing William
before the night was over, she also knew that it had already been a
exceedingly long day already. Taking a long drink of the strong
coffee, and checking the directions she’d been given against the
map, she pulled out onto the highway.
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All
night long, William had a sense of something about to happen. After
the fight, he expected those feelings to abate, but they hadn’t.
Rarely wrong, he’d begun to rely on those senses, call it intuition,
when something was about to go down, although he refused to examine
why he could sense a menacing demon presence, from a more benign
one. It just hit too close to home to acknowledge that distinction
between demons.
Looking
across the room, he spotted a flash of golden hair and his pulse
quickened momentarily. He shook his head at his idiocy, reminding
himself that there was no way she could be here. Once, he’d
almost been sure that it had been her, enough so that he’d followed
a small blonde to where she’d sat down. His disappointment only
superceded by his disgust, when he got close enough to see that, not
only wasn’t it Elizabeth, but the blonde hair was a wig, worn by a
demon.
Yet
despite knowing it was for naught, William’s eyes still followed the
blonde head bobbing in and out of the crowd, until she turned, and
he could see that it wasn’t her. Sighing, he went back to
serving the latest customer, the feeling in the pit of his stomach
still as active as ever.
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12:00
MIDNIGHT
Gulping
the last of her coffee for courage, Buffy navigated across five
lanes of traffic, and gratefully took a downtown exit off of the
maddening freeway, which was part and parcel of Los Angeles. A few
minutes later, she found Alameda Avenue. Checking the handwritten
directions Maria had given her, she confirmed that she only had
another couple of miles to go, before she would start following more
detailed directions to get her to the bar.
During
the long drive, she wondered if she shouldn’t call Dawn and let her
know that if she didn’t find William, she might have a guest for the
night. However, she couldn’t think of it that way, and so she
didn’t. If necessary, she knew she could go there, phone call or
not.
She
turned off Alameda, after missing the small street the first time
she drove past. The street twisted and turned, leading her further
and further into a seedy neighborhood, which made the one in San
Diego, seem like Brentwood, in comparison. Buffy gripped the
steering wheel tightly, as the address numbers neared that of her
destination. Slowing down, she inhaled sharply as the small sign on
the gray wood and brick building came into view.
Finding
a parking spot a few blocks away, she went into her trunk, and
grabbed a stake, hidden underneath her emergency road kit. She may
have faked out Lillian, but if this place was as bad as she feared,
she didn’t want to be unprepared.
As she
walked to the bar, she checked the streets and parking lots, hoping
to see William’s car, but it was nowhere in sight. By the time she
got to the door, she’d begun to fear she was too late to find him.
Or, perhaps he’d been tipped off to her inquiry, and had left before
she could get there.
A
couple of doors away, Buffy stopped to run her hands through her
hair, and rubbed her cheeks, hoping to put some color into them. She
knew she must look more like something that cat dragged in, than
some cool chick, used to hanging out in private clubs. Standing
tall, she gathered up her courage, and walked briskly to the door to
face her second bouncer for the night.
"Hi,"
she said cheerily, as though she didn’t have a care in the world.
"Is Wi...Spike here tonight?" she asked, holding her breath, waiting
for him to tell her that he was gone, or worse still, that he’d
never heard of him.
"Yeah,
Spike’s on. You a friend?" he asked.
Buffy’s
nodded, her mouth suddenly gone dry. "Yes," she finally managed to
get out, even managing a smile, despite feeling the renewed rush of
adrenaline pumping through her, leaving her in desperate need to
steady herself.
In the
month or so Mike had known Spike, he’d never heard him talk about
anyone. Miranda however, was sure that there was someone he still
loved. Maybe this was that person.
She
felt her face flame as he studied her. The moment passed, and he
stepped aside, letting her go by.
‘Good
for you, Spike,’ he thought.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Heart
pounding, Buffy concentrated on putting one foot in front of the
other, as she entered the darkened bar. It was set up more or less
like the other one, though one thing she sensed immediately was the
much larger presence of demons; probably equaling if not
outnumbering humans. The angry rhythmic music blaring from the
speakers seemed to match the overall tone of the place.
The bar
was located on the farthest wall away from the door, the shortest
route through the middle of the dance floor. Determinedly, Buffy
pushed through the masses of gyrating demons and humans until she
came out on the other side.
Suddenly the sounds and sights of the bar fell away,
as Buffy spotted William. His back was to her, but there was no
mistaking him. A woman with short, dark hair walked up and stood
next to him, then leaned in to say something to him. Buffy felt a
painful stab of jealousy as he turned his head partway toward the
woman, and replied. The woman laughed, then patted him on the back
before she walked away.
As
Buffy approached the bar, she could see William's face in the
mirror. Even though she already knew that he had changed his looks,
she couldn't help but be shocked as she stared at his platinum hair
and black leather coat that he wore. For Buffy it was as if she was
seeing Spike for the first time since he'd died closing the
Hellmouth.
William
stood at the register, counting out the money, as he did every night
at this time. Everything over one hundred dollars was put into the
safe, to be joined by the rest of the nights proceeds at closing.
Stopping to take a drink out of the glass nearby, he looked into the
mirror for a moment to check out the scene behind him, and make sure
that everything was still alright. Satisfied, that there was nothing
amiss, he went back to counting, until suddenly he stopped in
mid-count, and slowly looked up, realization hitting
him.
Buffy’s
wide eyes met his, in the mirror’s reflection. He closed his eyes,
then opened them again, sure he must be hallucinating.
She was
still there, her mouth now slightly open.
Slowly
he turned around, and they stared at each other.
"Elizabeth," he said, finally able to
speak.
Buffy
didn't reply as she stared into his eyes, and took in the sight of
him.
"How
did you...what are you doing here?" he
stammered.
Her
mouth tightened, and she let out a small snort, "I could ask you the
same thing, William. Or it’s Spike again, isn't
it?"
"I'm
working," William said, taking deep breath to get control of his
jangled nerves at seeing her here.
"You're
working? Here? In a demon bar?" Buffy asked, her tone
angry.
"It's
not a..." he started, but her look stopped him. He drew himself
upright, "So what?"
"So
what? I'd say that's a pretty far cry from working at the university
for Professor Wittman, isn't it?"
"Yeah,
well that's not me anymore, is it?"
"I can
see that," she countered, pointing to his hair, and his clothing.
"What the hell were you thinking?"
"Don't
like it?" He asked, leaning across the bar into her personal space.
"Thought you liked the vampire look, " he said,
challengingly.
"I
liked you, you idiot! You think I fell in love with
you because I got off on vampires? Or maybe it was that retro
80's look I got off on!" she yelled at him over the music.
He
glared at her, shaking his head.
Buffy
took a deep breath, not believing that their meeting had so quickly
deteriorated. Then again, she didn’t know what she’d expected; that
he would immediately fall into her arms, profess his stupidity at
having left, and come home with her?
"I fell
in love with Spike because he showed me that the man
you were was still alive inside him, because...Oh
hell, what's the use? Know what William? At least Spike wouldn't
quit, wouldn't leave! Maybe you're right after all, and maybe it was
just the demon who loved me, not the man!" Buffy said angrily,
turning away.
Frozen
to the spot, as he watched her walk away.
From
the end of the bar, Miranda had witnessed, if not heard, the
interaction between the two of them enough to know that this was
the woman she’d suspected Spike had been involved with. She
walked up to him, as he stood rooted to the
spot.
"Well,
I guess I’ll have a chance now," she said,
casually.
He
turned to look at her, dumbfounded. "What?"
"Her.
Looks like you’re ready to let go of your past."
William
looked at her, pain etched in every line of his
face.
She
rolled her eyes at him. Men could be so dense sometimes. "Go!"
Miranda ordered; her head motioned toward Buffy’s retreating
figure.
"Wait!
Elizabeth!" William yelled, running out from the
bar.
Buffy
was half way across the room by the time William caught up with her.
He grabbed her arm and pulled her around.
"Let go
of me!" she yelled, struggling to pull her arm free, at the same
time, trying hard not to give in to the urge to slug him as hard as
she could.
"No!"
he yelled back, grabbing her other arm, so that she now faced
him.
"Why?
What do you want from me?" Buffy demanded.
"Just...come with me," he said, trying to pull her
the opposite way that she was heading, but she resisted.
"Why
William? Why should I?"
Hands
on her upper arms, he bent his knees, allowing himself to be eye
level with her. "Please?"
The
imploring look he was giving her did it; Buffy took a small
shuddering breath, and nodded her assent.
William
nodded back, relieved, "Come on, this way," he said, leading her to
the back of the bar, through the kitchen area, and out the back door
leading to the alley.
William
pulled two crates off of a stack, and sat down on one, motioning for
Buffy to sit on the other one. She sat down facing him, their knees
nearly touching.
"How
have you been?" William asked gently, able to take good look at her
for the first time since she’d come. He’d never seen her look so
disheveled, or slight, as she did to him now, and it worried
him.
Buffy
gave a little laugh, "Oh just peachy, with a side of keen. How ‘bout
you?"
"I
don’t know what that means, but sounds about
right."
They
looked at each other, and started laughing, breaking the ice a
bit.
"How
are things at the house? Um, have you winterized yet? Do you have
enough fuel?"
"Yeah,
Clem’s been over helping. He took care of the propane, and he’s
chopped enough wood for three winters I think..." she faded off.
"Oh, and the toilet had a leak. It was the seal, so we replaced it.
Well, he did most of the replacing; toilets aren’t really my domain
of expertise."
"Oh...Well, good; that’s good," he said, looking down
guiltily at hearing Clem was taking care of Elizabeth and things at
the house that should’ve been, had been, his job. It occurred
to him, that for all the years he wasn’t there, that this was
probably how they’d done things.
Elbows
on his knees, William sighed, and rested his head in one hand,
before looking up at her, meeting her eyes.
"How
did you find me?"
"Don’t
you remember what I told you?"
"What’s
that?"
"That
I’ll always find you, that I’ll always come for you," she said
softly.
Slowly
he nodded, "I remember."
Her
hand reached out, interlocking her fingers with his hand that cupped
his face.
"Elizabeth," he mouthed silently, as his closed his
eyes for a moment, gripping her hand tightly. Their hands reversed
order, so that now, it was hers touching his face. She felt her eyes
tear up in response to hearing him softly moan, as she continued to
stroke his face, and his hand continued to cling to
hers.
Suddenly he shook his head, and abruptly stood up,
causing her hand to fall away, "But it doesn’t change anything, you
still shouldn’t have come."
"Why?
Why are you doing this?" she asked, standing up to face
him.
"Doing
what?" he asked, pulling the flask out of his pocket and taking a
drink. It was followed by an empty package of cigarettes, which he
threw it to the ground.
"All of
it! Drinking, smoking, fighting demons...are you trying to get
yourself killed?"
"I can
take care of myself."
"Yeah,
I can see that. You’re doing a great job," she said, looking at his
trembling hands. "You may be trying to look like Spike, but
you don’t have the strength he...you once had to fight
demons!"
"I do
alright," William answered defensively, shoving his hands into his
pockets.
"Is
that why you’re limping?"
"It’s
nothing, just banged it is all," he said, turning
away.
"But
why? You still haven’t answered me. Why are you doing this?
You could’ve done anything else. I can’t accept that this is what
you want. Fighting demons, after all you’ve been
through?"
"Don’t
fight them all, luv," he said, adding, "some aren’t so bad; mind
their own business, don’t cause problems..."
"Yeah,
well, I’m sure Clem will be glad to hear you feel that
way."
William
looked at her guiltily, "I’m sorry about that. You know the first
demon I saw when I started working, was one who looked like Clem;
his type I guess. You know about the other bar too, I
suppose?"
Buffy
nodded, "Yeah, also about Marlong."
William
looked at her questioningly.
"That
was the name of the demon who you thought was Clem. That’s how I
found out; he told Clem a guy named ‘Spike’ had mistaken him
for Clem," she said, omitting having talked to the Wittmans or that
she’d also found out about Ipso Facto from information in his
apartment.
"Oh,"
he said, nodding.
"What
about the majority of demons that aren’t as benign as Clem’s type?
Do you have a death wish?"
He let
out a small laugh; it was the second time that night he’d been asked
that. First by Miranda, and now by Elizabeth.
"Wouldn’t matter, I’d just come back anyway," he said
shrugging.
"Oh, so
that’s what you think is it? That it’s okay for you to risk your
life, because you what, think you’re invulnerable? I got a
news-flash for you William, you don’t get another life; this is
it!"
"Well,
I shouldn’t have this one either!" he shot back, pacing in front of
her.
"That’s
not true," Buffy said, shaking her head. "You earned it,
William! Don’t you see that? You saved the world and everyone in it
when you closed the Hellmouth. You deserved to have your life back,
your human life, or you wouldn’t be
here!"
He
stopped and faced her; "It’s my life, right?"
"Right,
of course," she said, wondering what he was getting
at.
"Then
it’s mine to choose how I want to live it, it’s what
I deserve. It’s not up to you to decide that
for me, according to your vision of some storybook fairytale
starring you and me in the lead roles as the former vampire and
slayer who rode off into the sunset of marital bliss. Maybe having a
few kiddies along the way, and sitting in rocking chairs when we get
old to reminisce about the good old days. How am I doing so far?" he
practically yelled, his voice having gotten louder and angrier as
he’d gone on.
Buffy
listened to him in disbelief as he’d torn into her, biting her lip
so hard she could taste the blood, to prevent the tears in her eyes
from spilling down in front of him.
"Stop
it!"
"Go
home, Elizabeth! Don’t come back," he said, turning to walk back
inside.
She
stood there, stunned for a moment then just as he was about to open
the door, she found her voice, "You’re a liar!"
He
whirled around, "I’m a what?" he asked,
furiously.
"A
liar. You still love me, I know you do...Don’t you?" she asked,
hating the sound of her voice; so pathetic, so
pleading.
He
walked up to her and grabbed her by her upper arms, "Enough to let
you go, to let you walk away from this sort of life, from
me! Enough to..." he stopped suddenly, as did she, both their
head turning towards a loud humming sound coming from down the
alley.
"What
the hell is that?"
"I
don’t know," Buffy said, but something in her brain was remembering
something as the sound grew louder.
"It
sounds like chanting," he said, looking at her.
She
nodded.
"Like
something monks do," he added.
The
lightbulb went on in her brain, "Shit," she said, as she saw the
tall, dark robed figures now heading towards
them.
"I
think they’re Gregorline demons. They’re named after Gregorian
monks, that’s why they sound like that, all chant-y. I’ve never seen
them before, but believe me, their reputation proceeds them, and
it’s not good. That and anything to do with monks, never a good
thing! By the way, if you have any weapons, now would be the time to
get them."
"What?"
William yelled, the sound of the chanting all but drowning them out
now.
"Weapons!" she yelled.
William
let go of her, and ran to where the crates were stacked, and
clambered onto them, reaching a long, wide window ledge about eight
feet off of the ground. He threw down a couple of swords and some
knives that had been stashed there.
"Get
out of here," he yelled.
"Not a
chance," Buffy yelled back, grabbing a sword, with one hand, a knife
with the other.
William
ran in front of her, as the demons approached. There were three of
them, all towering over him by at least a head, and probably
outweighing him by close to a hundred pounds,
too.
"Well,
at least the odds aren’t too bad...Oh crap," Buffy said, realizing
she spoke too soon, as she spotted an additional three demons coming
from the opposite way.
William
had also figured the same, until he looked behind him, and now felt
his stomach begin to sink. He’d fought a few vamps and demons on his
own before, but usually Mike was with him, and the demons didn’t
outnumber them like they did now.
"You’ve
still got time, get inside!" he yelled frantically, trying to push
her.
"No
way, William; we’re in this together. Back-to-back now, they’re
here!"
The
first demon charged, and without preamble, William plunged the sword
deep into its stomach with ferocity borne of desperation, and the
desire to protect the woman he loved. Shocked, he watched as the
demon looked down at the wound, and let out an ear splitting scream
sending out shock waves in the night air. A brownish gray gooey
blood-like material exploded from the demon’s body onto William’s
coat, as it fell over dead.
"It’s
the stomach, go for the stomach!" he screamed at her, over the
increased chants of the demons, as they charged.
One
thing William had learned from the past month was that each demon
species had its Achilles’ heel. Through keenly observing which part
of their anatomy they seemed to most closely guard when fighting, he
could usually best them. Not always an easy thing to do, in the heat
of battle, but he prided himself on having developed a knack for
this sort of thing. Despite his bravado to Elizabeth, he more than
understood that all of his human self was vulnerable, and
he’d best maximize his staying potential by winning, and doing so as
quickly as possible.
Buffy
heard him, and with a surety from years of slaying, neatly stuck her
sword in the nearest demon’s abdomen. It fell over dead, also
exploding.
"Eww!"
she exclaimed, as she was sprayed with the demon’s blood. "Anyone
ever tell you guys that you’re really gross?"
"Don’t
think they speak English, luv," William yelled back over his
shoulder, as he fought off the other two demons.
As
they’d done so many other times in the past, they stood fighting
back to back. Each was acutely aware of where the other was, as well
as the demons’ positions.
Besides
the chants whose purpose was to disorient and numb, there were no
other mystical properties these demons had at their disposal. Well,
there was brute strength; especially if one considered fists like
anvils as such.
William
struck at the two demons on his side, wounding them, but he was also
taking blows, as was Buffy. A sudden punch to his stomach made him
stumble into her. Concentration temporarily lost as she turned
toward William, a heavy fist came down on her head, and she
fell.
"Watch
out!" William yelled.
Quickly
orienting herself, she flipped herself up, just as the two demons
William had been fighting came at her. Flipping upward, she
connected with the nearest one’s jaw, and it fell to the ground
disoriented. She plunged the knife into its stomach, just as the
other one threw itself at her. They both landed on the dead demon,
and rolled over. The demon had her by the throat, and was chanting
her into oblivion.
William, who had crippled one of other demons, heard
her strangled cry.
"Elizabeth!" he yelled, and with a warrior’s cry,
jumped on top of the demon. Grabbing its neck, he pulled it back
unnaturally far, until he heard a loud crack. The demon released his
grip on Buffy, falling over onto her in a dead
heap.
Buffy
gasped, as the air rushed back into her lungs. William scrambled up,
pushing the demon off of her; "You okay?" he asked, quickly pulling
her up.
She
nodded, and they turned to face the remaining two. The demons stood
still, but their chants had increased. Buffy turned to look at
William, and noticed his eyes had glazed over, as the chanting held
him in its thrall. Turning back just in time, she saw one of the
demons rushing toward them, she threw the knife at it with deadly
precision. It screamed, crumpling to the ground.
"Spike!" she screamed, and threw herself on top of
him, and they fell, just as the last demon charged. It ran straight
into the wall they had been standing near, and fell, temporarily
stunned.
"Spike!" she said, breathing heavily as she lay on
top of him. As the chanting stilled, William’s eyes fluttered back
to the present, finding hers. Automatically, his hands went around
her back pulling in her closer, and she responded, by grounding
herself into him further as they stared into each other’s
eyes.
"Elizabeth," he said, bringing up one hand to brush
softly across her face, moving a piece of hair behind her ear.
"I...Move!" from the corner of his eye, he’d seen the Gregorline
demon silently get up and start to advance on them. He grabbed for
the knife, which had fallen next to him, as he pushed Buffy over, he
sat up, and plunged the blade into the demon’s stomach just as it
was upon them. The demon screamed, its blood spurting out and over
them in a gooey torrent.
"Shit!"
Buffy said, trying to wipe the stuff off of her face.
"You
okay?" he asked, trying to do the same, though not as much had
sprayed on him.
"I
don’t know, I think this stuff is burning me."
He
could feel his own hands and parts of his face start to burn now
that she’d mentioned it. Worriedly, he looked over at her, her arms,
torso, face, and hair were coated in the ooze, and he could see her
skin start to redden.
"Shit!"
Buffy said again, jumping up and trying in vain to wipe it off
her.
"Let’s
go!" William said, grabbing her hand.
"Where?"
"Let’s
get you into the shower!"
END
CHAPTER 166
A/N
Thanks go out to Angie K., Jo, & Islandsrus who gave me
some useful information about clubs and sleazy places in L.A. It's
been a long time since I've been through there, to even remember
street names I'd passed on the highways. And Islandsrus...I SO
wanted to use the name The Sheik, and still may. And the story of
your adventure...ROTFLMAO! To be young, naive, and adventurous
- LOL.
CHAPTER 167 – WHO ARE YOU?
Mike came rushing out the
back door of the bar, followed by some other men, just as William,
holding onto Buffy, were about to enter.
"What happened?" Mike
asked.
"Demons."
"Figured, why didn't you
come get me?"
"We got jumped, wasn't any
time for coming to get you," William said.
"You guys alright?"
Buffy's head turned toward
the voice, her eyes narrowing. It was the dark haired woman who had
stood next to William at the bar, with so much
familiarity.
"More or less, got to get
this gunk washed off of us though. Seems to be of a burning nature;
quite a bit, actually."
Miranda bit back a smile,
noticing that Spike had seemed to have lost the working-class accent
she had gotten used to hearing him speak with, "Yeah, go ahead.
We’re good," she said, stepping aside, "you
and...?"
"Elizabeth," William said,
"Elizabeth, Miranda. Miranda, Elizabeth."
Buffy only nodded,
appraising the competition. She felt William’s hand tighten around
hers; assuring her without words that this woman wasn’t anyone to
worry about.
"Nice to meet you," Miranda
said, then turned back to William, "Go on, take care of yourself and
Elizabeth."
"I will," he
said.
William let go of Buffy’s
hand just long enough to fumble with the keys to the basement door.
"Be careful, it’s dark. Light went out last week, and I keep
forgetting to replace it," he warned, reaching back for her hand.
She took it, and they made their way down the stairs. Once there, he
reached up, and pulled a chain for the overhead
light.
She looked at him
questioningly, not seeing anything but the furnace, washer and
dryer, and a bunch of boxes.
"It’s this way," he said.
They walked to the other end of the basement, where he produced a
second key, and let her into his room. He left the door open so she
could see, before he turned on the light in the ceiling. Coming back
to her, he closed the door, locking it.
"Going for that minimalist
look I see," she said, frowning at the Spartan conditions. "Not as
nice as your... your home," she said, just barely catching herself
from saying apartment.
He stared at her, but didn’t
respond, "Don’t need much, I guess. Come on, bathroom’s this
way."
Buffy followed him into the
small bathroom. He turned on the faucets; "There’s a towel behind
the door; best you get out of those things quick as you can. It’ll
take a while for me to adjust this," he said, as he knelt in front
of the tub.
She hesitated for a moment;
embarrassed suddenly to be undressing in front of him, even though
his back was to her. But the offending, ooze soaked clothing was
only making the burning worse. She tore them off, leaving them in a
pile on the floor, quickly grabbing the towel from the door and
pulling it around her.
"I think it’s ready,"
William said, standing up. He looked at her, then looked away. "You
want to be careful if you adjust it. The hot is on the opposite side
than usual, and there’s more cold than hot, unfortunately. Oh, it’s
not such a good spray, you might have to..."
"I’ll figure it out," she
interrupted.
"Right."
"What about you?" she said,
noticing that his forehead and scalp had turned from pink to bright
red from his own burns.
"I’m okay, I can wait until
you’re done," he said, putting his hand up to his forehead and
trying to not wince.
"No William, it’s your
shower, you shouldn’t have to wait."
"Elizabeth," he said,
looking up in exasperation. "Please just get in, um I mean, unless
you’re suggesting...uh, nevermind."
Her eyes widened for a
moment, "I wasn’t," she said quickly, "but that’ll
work."
He just stared at her, his
mouth opening and closing.
"I’m just being practical,
come on, lets get this burning crap off of us!" she said, getting
into the shower. She pulled the shower curtain most the way closed,
leaving enough room for him to enter, and dropped the towel back out
onto the floor.
He stood there, frozen, as
he heard the shower start, and then a piercing
scream.
"What’s wrong?"
"Guess there was still some
cold water in the pipes. Sorry, it’s okay now."
He let out a relieved
breath.
"Well?" she
asked.
"Well
what?"
"Are you coming in, or are
you just planning on standing out there until I’m done?" she asked,
peeking at him through the opening.
Looking back at her, he
pulled off his shirt.
Smiling a little to herself,
she ducked back behind the curtain to give him some privacy. She
heard the sound of his belt hit the floor, and moments later felt
him enter the shower, and saw the shower curtain move as he closed
it the rest of the way.
Her back was to him, her
hair in the water’s spray as he entered. She didn’t say anything,
just lifted her arm up, and tilted the showerhead back, so that he
could rinse off as well.
"It’s still on you," he
said, looking at her back, which was streaked with the brownish gray
still, red showing around the edges.
"It’s
sticky."
"Hold on," he said, half way
stepping out of the tub to reach something on the sink.
"Got something that’ll
help," he said, taking the washcloth from her.
"What is
it?"
"I believe that the name is
Fels Naptha," he said, as he rubbed the hard bar on the
washcloth.
"Isn’t that...?" she asked,
as she felt him start to rub her back.
"Laundry soap, yes. Works
wonders on hard to clean spots of blood and guts I’ve found
though."
"No wonder my mom used to
buy it," Buffy mused.
"It’s coming off now," he
said, as he worked the washcloth in small, gentle circles around her
back, careful to not cause more pain to her already irritated skin.
He reached over and got a bar of milder soap, and used that to wash
away any residue of the harsher one from her back.
His movements slowed, and he
became mesmerized by just the feel of her back under his hands, as
they slowly moved over her soft skin. So very much he wanted to kiss
the little spot right between her shoulder blades, the one he knew
always made her shiver in delight. Instead shook his head to clear
his reverie, and moved the showerhead to rinse her off.
"Here," he said, having
soaped up the washcloth again, "you do your face and your front,
while I take care of your hair for you. Make sure you don’t get any
in your eyes. Stings like a bi...a lot," he corrected. "I
know."
"What about you?" she asked
softly. "You should be getting this stuff off of yourself,
too."
"I’m okay, I didn’t have as
much on me. It’s almost gone on it’s own," he said, starting to
massage her scalp with the shampoo.
"I don’t remember bringing
my shampoo," she teased him, sniffing.
"Um...yeah, well, I like it
too."
"I know," she said smiling
to herself, although she knew he’d had his own favorites,
none of which had ever been vanilla
anything.
She closed her eyes and let
herself relax as he massaged the shampoo into her scalp. He pushed
her head back under the water, and after rinsing out the suds, added
conditioner, running his fingers through the tangles, like he’d seen
her do, until her hair was snarl free and squeaky clean. He smiled
at his handy work.
"Good as new, luv," he said,
"wanna get dried off, or want to stay and soak up more of the barely
warm ambience of my pathetic shower?"
She turned to look at him,
and shook her head, "No, it’s your turn now, William," she said, as
she shimmied around him, her bare flesh on his, causing him to gasp
softly.
Pushing on his chest, she
backed him into the water, and reached over his head to direct the
spray for his height. As she did, she slipped a bit, falling into
him. He grabbed onto her to prevent them both from falling. He
looked at her, his face betraying both his desire and emotional
turmoil from having her so close to him again.
"Um..."
"Yeah," she said, taking a
step back, but not taking her eyes off of his, "you should maybe
turn around now."
He nodded, his eyes never
leaving hers, but all too aware of the rise and fall of her breasts,
and the heat between their bodies. Buffy noticed it too, of course.
Even without looking south, even before she’d fallen into him and
felt his desire, even before he’d washed her back, and for a moment
she’d thought she felt his warm breath on her skin. There were no
surprises here; they’d always had heat between
them.
She’d kept her eyes on his,
but couldn’t help seeing the bruises on his torso. However, it was
when he had turned, that she had to swallow down a gasp. There in
vivid colors crisscrossing his back, were scars and bruises, proof
of his new and dangerous life he’d been living. Lower down the back
of his knee was angry purple, and swollen. It was no small wonder
he’d been limping.
Buffy took the washcloth,
and began to wash his back, as he had done for her. William winced
when she went over a particularly nasty one starting on his right
shoulder, although she tried to be as gentle as she
could.
"I’m sorry," she said.
Putting aside the washcloth, her fingers feathered over the angry
gash.
"It’s alright, rest of it
feels...nice," he said, hesitantly.
"Yeah?"
He gave a small
nod.
"Okay, now for your
head...hair!" she amended quickly, when she saw him
freeze.
He reached out his hand
behind him for the bottle. She was disappointed, but didn’t say
anything. His blonde, Spike curls had been calling out to be
touched, as she unabashedly stared at them now. Still, encouraged by
his little admission, she returned her attentions to his back,
alternately stroking and massaging.
"Ready for the
conditioner?"
"Thanks," he said, putting
his hand out. Instead he felt it being squeezed onto his hair, and
her hands rubbing it in. He gave himself over to her touch and the
nearness of her body almost, but not quite touching his. Bitter
tears of yearning fell at what he’d been denying himself, for what
he told himself he didn’t deserve.
"That’s enough!" he said
suddenly and a bit too loud.
Buffy froze.
"I mean, I got it," he
added, when she didn’t reply.
Quickly he finished rinsing
his hair. "Best find some clothes for you, think yours are done
for," he said not looking at her, as he turned around.
"Are you finished, or do you
want me to leave the water running?"
She shook her
head.
William turned off the water
and pulled open the shower curtain, grabbing a towel he handed it to
her. After grabbing his own, he stepped out of the tub, pulling the
shower curtain closed between them as he did, partly to preserve
what remaining warmth was in the room, but more so because he
couldn't bear being so close to her this way
anymore.
Without another word, she
heard the door to the bathroom open and close, and she was alone.
Buffy stood there in shock for a few moments, wondering what had
happened. Finally, she covered herself with the towel, listening for
him to return with the clothes he’d mentioned. Seconds turned to
minutes, and her shock began to turn to anger.
Outside of the bathroom,
William paced around the room, muttering to himself. Going to the
dresser, he rifled through a sock drawer, until he found what he was
looking for.
Hands shaking, he opened up
the new pint of whiskey and drank straight from the bottle. His eyes
stung along with his throat, but he felt calmer after a long pull.
Closing the drawer, he found some clothes in a pile and got dressed,
absentmindedly even putting the duster back on.
Buffy sat on the closed lid
of the toilet seat and listened as the drawer was opened and closed,
assuming that he had been looking for something for her to wear.
Thinking she heard him approaching the bathroom, she stood up, but
no knock came. She waited and waited, wondering what the hell he
could be doing for so long. Her foot tapped impatiently on the cold
tile floor, as she grew angrier and angrier, at both her untenable
situation, and at him.
Forlornly, she looked down
at her own ooze soaked clothes on the floor. The acidic blood of the
demons had burned through them, leaving them in tatters. "Definitely
not a good option," she muttered.
Finally, she stood up, and
went to the door, clutching the towel around her. She put her ear to
the door. Hearing nothing, she opened it up, and was surprised to
see William just standing against the wall near the door, staring
off into space. A couple of large candles burning on the dresser,
now replaced the harsh overhead light.
"What are you doing? I
thought you were going to get something for me to wear, so I could
leave." She glanced down at his hand and saw the bottle, and her
lips tightened into a hard expression.
Slowly he looked up at her.
"Elizabeth," he said softly, his eyes focusing as if he’d just
become aware of her presence.
"Hello! Clothes! Unless you
want me to leave wearing this towel, but I will if I have to; I’m
sure as hell not sticking around here to watch you abuse yourself."
He didn’t answer
her.
"Fine, I’ll find some
myself," she said exasperated, turning away.
His hand shot out and
grabbed her arm, "Don’t walk away from me!" William yelled.
Instinctively, she swung at
him, but he grabbed hold of her wrist a split second before her fist
made contact with his nose. The bottle broke as it hit the floor,
filling the room with the smell of whiskey.
"Let me go!" she yelled
back, twisting to get away, but he held tight.
"Who are you? I look at you
and I don’t see William anymore, and I don’t see Spike! I don’t know
what I see anymore. What do you want from me?" she
repeated.
The towel had fallen to the
floor, when she’d swung at him. Still holding onto her raised hand,
and other arm, he looked down at her body, her chest heaving
angrily. Unconsciously, his tongue licked his lips, as he stared at
her.
Suddenly, he pulled her
towards him.
"Bastard!" Buffy said
through gritted teeth, as his mouth crashed down on hers, tasting of
whiskey, and she moaned as his tongue slipped inside her mouth. One
hand firmly taking hold of her breast, the other held her around the
waist, tight against him.
Her arms went underneath his
coat, as she helped him shrug it off. Heedless of his injuries, and
furious that after all this time, her traitorous body still
responded to the violence and the anger toward a certain peroxide
blonde as foreplay.
Roughly she pulled up on his
shirt, until her hands made contact with his skin. She heard him
gasp, whether in pain or pleasure, she didn’t care; wouldn’t
care. He’d brought her to this point of insanity, let him deal
with the results.
Mouths still joined, she
felt his hands lifting her up, and her legs automatically wrapped
around his waist, while her hands reached between them to undo his
jeans. She only managed to get his jeans part way unzipped before it
stuck, and he couldn’t do the rest of it, while holding her up. Her
hand rubbed his straining cock through the offending material, and
he growled out his frustration before stumbling over to the bed. He
fell back onto it, and she toppled down with him, making herself
ignore what surely was a grunt of discomfort as he landed with her
on top of him. With a fury towards him she hadn’t felt in years, she
roughly pulled his T-shirt over his head, enjoying with satisfaction
the ripping sound it made, as she did so.
William looked at her in
surprise, his eyes large with unbridled lust, as she sat up and
yanked his pants down, throwing them on the floor. He put his knees
up, causing her to slip forward right onto his cock, with only a bit
of adjustment needed, then grabbed her, pulling her back down on
him.
Buffy’s hands threaded
through his curls, pulling hard on his hair as they kissed. He
groaned, as his hands rocked her hips against him as he thrust up
into her. His head was tingling and his lips sore, from the way she
was going at him.
Feeling like his hair was
about to come out in clumps, he grabbed onto hers just as hard,
pulling her up from him for a moment, and looked into her face. He
saw her eyes blazing at him in lust and fury.
"I hate you," she hissed at
him. William just stared at her for a moment, then slowly nodded,
"That makes two of us," he finally said, a look of resignation on
his face.
Letting go of her hair, he
grabbed hold of her shoulders and rolled them over, still inside
her. Fueled by her words, and his own self-loathing, he let her body
be a vehicle for his frustration and anger, as his thrusts became
harder and faster.
Her moans gave way to tears
as the truth of situation finally broke her.
William kept pummeling into
her, until suddenly, somewhere along the edge of his consciousness,
he realized she had stilled. He stopped, and looked down at her
face, saw her eyes tightly closed, and lips trembling with silent
sobs.
"Oh God!" William said,
horrified. He pulled out of her, and rolled
over.
"I’m sorry. Elizabeth. I'm
sorry, oh God..." he kept repeating.
His apologies only served to
make her cry harder, until her stomach hurt and throat tightened
from the effort of making them silent. She felt the bed shaking, and
looked at him. He had scooted up, and was now holding his head in
both hands and rocking against the wall, as he mumbled his apology
to her again and again. She wasn't sure whom her heart was breaking
for more, him or herself. After all, they'd both let this...all
of it, go too far, until they had totally screwed up everything
that had been so wonderful about them.
Seeing him like this sobered
her up. Afraid he was going to hyperventilate, she put her hand out
to still him. He looked down at her hand, then at her with tears in
his eyes. "I'm sorry," he repeated.
"Shhh," she said, "it's not
your fault; it's both of ours."
He shook his head, and
reached down next to the bed. A bottle of Jack Daniels appeared in
his trembling hand.
"Yes, it is," she said
firmly, putting her hand on top of the bottle, before he could get
the cap off, "and that’s not going to help."
"Won’t hurt," he said,
laughing maniacally at some inner joke.
"William!"
He stopped laughing and
looked at her. "What?"
"Lay down and close your
eyes," she said, as she gently took the bottle from him. "You need
to get some rest now."
"I can’t. Can’t sleep, can’t
rest. That’s why I need that, I can’t do it without it," he said,
his eyes glancing up at her in shame.
"Yes you can," she said
softly, "I’ll help you."
His breath shuddered, as she
pulled on his arm, coaxing him into lying back
down.
"I
can’t."
"Yes you can," she said.
Once he was lying down, with his eyes shut, she curled up next to
him, and began to trace circles on his chest, going a bit lower
every couple of minutes.
William made a few mumbles
of resistance, but he soon gave into the feeling. As she went lower
and lower on his abdomen, she could feel the increased rise and fall
of his chest, as his cock strained toward her hand. As she finally
made contact with it, she heard him moan softly.
He started to turn towards
her, his hand reaching out to stroke her breast, but she gently
pushed it away. Instead, she lifted up, so that his arm could go
around her. Her hand teased him a while longer, alternating between
his cock and his balls, until his breathing became labored. As it
did, his movement of his hand on her back, and in her hair also
increased, matching her stroke for stroke as he grew harder and
harder, until she herself was also breathing in rhythm to his
excitement. A little moan escaped her lips, to his much louder one,
as she felt him begin to come.
Afterwards, he took hold of
her hand as she released him, and kissed her fingers, then brought
it to his chest, as his other arm held onto her tightly. "Thank
you," he mumbled sleepily, kissing the top of her head.
She didn’t reply, just lay
there wondering how she was going to go about leaving. Her thoughts
soon drifted to the fact that by now, he should’ve been...um, wiping
up. She tried to crane her neck to see if there was something within
range, and spotted his towel and a woefully thin blanket at the end
of the bed.
William made a little hurt
sound when she tried to rise, and tried to pull her back, but she
managed to sit up and grab the two items.
"Here," she said, handing
him the towel, as she lay back down.
"Huh?" he looked up sleepily
from heavy lids.
"Never mind," she said, and
began to wipe off his stomach.
"Oh," he said, taking it
from her and finishing for himself. He tossed it away from the bed
when he was finished.
Buffy looked at him, and
listened, as she heard him start to snore.
"I’m sorry, guess you were
right..." he mumbled, fading off.
"It’s alright William, just
go to sleep," she said, pulling the thin blanket over him as best
she could.
He nodded once, and she
heard him snore again.
Lying there, she tried to
make sense of it all, but there was no sense to be made; each
thought eventually leading back to her own sense of inadequacy and
failure.
Now, she just wanted to
leave, go home and lick her wounds, anything other than being
pathetic enough to stay the night, and have him not want her there
when he woke. Still, each time she tried to get up, he pulled her
back, even though he was still asleep.
Figuring that at some point
he would be deeply enough asleep so that he wouldn’t notice, she
decided to just close her eyes; it would just be for a few minutes,
she told herself. But weariness from the long, grueling day overtook
her and soon she was sound asleep, in William’s possessive embrace.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
A few hours later, Buffy
startled awake, disoriented. As the memories came back to her, so
did the tears. Not wanting to awaken him, she carefully moved out of
his arms, and this time he was too deeply asleep to notice. Getting
up, she took one of the candles and looked around, until she found a
T-shirt and pair of his jeans she could wear, and put them on.
Miraculously, she managed to locate her purse, and took out a small
notebook and pen. Quietly, she tore the note off of the pad, and
walked back over to the bed.
Unabashedly, she stared down
at William’s now peacefully sleeping form, looking so much like
Spike, it made her heart hurt, and she wasn’t even sure why. In the
glow of the candles, she couldn’t help being reminded of his old
crypt, and how in his sleep, he would look so innocent, that for a
while, she could forget that he was a vampire. Now she could almost
forget he was human.
Leaning down, she placed a
soft kiss on his head, "Goodbye, William" she whispered. Taking
another look at the note, she crumpled it and stuffed it into her
pocket; there just wasn’t anything left to say.
END CHAPTER
167
CHAPTER 168 - OUTBREAK
NOVEMBER 15,
2009
SATURDAY
NOON
***
William lay on a hill above
the Lake District, journal by his side, and watched the wispy clouds
above. Although it was sunny, the weather was cooler than normal for
a late summer’s day. William shivered, wishing he’d thought to bring
his jacket, but in his hurry to take some time for himself while the
rest of the family rested from their busy holiday, he’d forgotten.
He closed his eyes, and tried to will himself to feel the sun’s
warmth, over the cool wind. It must’ve been working, because
suddenly it seemed as though the temperature had risen, and his body
felt suffused with comfort and warmth.
Opening his eyes he
startled. A woman stood above him, the sun shining around her blonde
hair like a halo. She smiled at his startled
expression.
"What are you?" he
asked.
"What do you want me to be?"
she asked.
"What do you
mean?"
She kneeled down next to
him, and put her hand on his face. "It’s really quite a simple
question, William. You know who I am, but what do you want me to
be?"
He swallowed, "How can a
man...how can I ask anything of you?"
"Because you won’t ask for
anything that I’m not already willing to give
you."
"But what if what I want, I
don’t deserve?"
"Then I’ll still gladly give
it to you with an willing heart."
He grabbed her hand and
kissed it, grateful tears springing to his eyes.
"So, what do you want me to
be?"
"I don’t
know."
"What did you feel, right
before you first saw me?"
His blue eyes widened with
understanding, and he smiled at her. "That was you. You were my
warmth, my comfort, my...."
"Yes," she said sadly,
standing up and taking a step backwards, "I was, and can be again,
but not if you don’t hold on to me."
"What?" he asked scrambling
to his feet. Looking around he saw that he was no longer on a gentle
hillside in England, but back in Julian, and it was Elizabeth
standing at the edge of the lookout beyond ‘their tree.’
"You’re not holding on," she
warned, still walking backwards.
"Elizabeth, don’t move!
Don’t go!"
"It’s too late, William. You
wouldn’t hold on," she said, as she stepped backwards into the
abyss.
***
"No!" he screamed, thrashing
the bed covers.
William opened his eyes to
the dim light of the low burning candles, and to the fading scent
she’d left behind. Or maybe it was from the dream; he wasn’t sure
what was real anymore.
Shakily, he sat up on the
side of the bed, his head swimming dizzily, but he willed his aching
and battered body upright, and went into the bathroom. There,
still lying on the floor, were the remnants of Elizabeth’s
demon-tattered clothing. It hadn't been a dream; she'd really been
here. Sinking down against the tub, he put his head in his hands,
and wept.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
He was still sitting in the
bathroom, when an hour later he heard pounding on his
door.
"I know you're there Spike!
I saw your car outside," Miranda called through the
door.
"Go away!"
"No, I won’t. I told you to
get out of here for a few days, and I meant it!"
"Fine, I'll leave!" he
yelled.
"Good, don't come back
before Monday; Tuesday, even," Miranda said, with a parting
knock.
Furious, he pulled himself
up, threw some things into a bag, grabbed his car keys, and headed
out. He stopped on the way to grab a couple of bottles of Jack
Daniels, "Take 'em outta my paycheck," he said to Miranda, stomping
off.
Throwing his stuff into the
back seat, William sat in the car, wondering what to do, and where
to go. He had no intention of going to San Marcos. Having not been
there in quite a while, he knew the Wittman's would come to check on
him, and he didn't want to deal with either their concern, or have
to lie to them. It was just too much for him to
handle.
Instead, once at the
highway, William drove north, and headed up the coast. His intention
was to keep driving until nightfall. Instead, an hour past Santa
Barbara, he pulled into a nondescript, small old motel off of the
highway. After paying for two days at the front desk, with
instructions that he wasn't to be disturbed, he bought some snack
foods from the vending machines. As he’d requested, his room was in
the far back of the motel.
William pulled up in front
of the room, and grabbed the bag from the back seat, and let himself
into the room. It was small, its walls painted tan, with faux
paintings of some nautical scenes, one over each bed. The room had a
desk, a phone, and a small television set. The bathroom/sink area
was at the far end of the room. Tossing his stuff on the extra bed,
William drew the blinds closed. Except for the a little stream of
sunlight where the curtains didn’t quite close over the edge of the
windows, it was pitch black in the room.
Tossing his shirt over the
chair, William sat down on the bed, and uncapped one of the bottles.
Pouring a good measure into the tumbler he’d retrieved from the
sink, he drank it down, neat.
NOVEMBER 16,
2009
SUNDAY
4:00PM
With no sense of how much
time had passed, Buffy sat huddled in bed like a person in
shellshock, since returning home early yesterday morning from her
impromptu William-finding mission. Though the simple truth was that
it was just as much purposeful, as shock. She’d come to
realize that Spike had been onto something back in Sunnydale, back
when she'd found him in the high school basement so very long ago.
He'd told her if you didn't move, didn't speak, didn't think, that
it didn't hurt as much.
Only three times since
yesterday, had she spoken with anyone, and only one of those times,
had it been by her initiation.
As she was driving home
yesterday, she'd received a phone call from Dawn. Although she
didn't want to, she knew if she didn't talk to her, Dawn would just
call back until Buffy finally answered, and if she didn't, she'd
worry. Reluctantly, she took the call, and as brief as she could,
she told Dawn about William, less the personal stuff. She kept her
voice steady and emotions in check because she knew that Dawn would
rant and be furious at William, when she couldn't be.
"He's working in a demon
bar?" Dawn had sputtered, "Is he crazy?"
"I'm afraid so," Buffy had
answered, with a small, tight laugh.
"Really?
Crazy-crazy?"
"No, not like
vampire-in-the-school-basement-possessed-by-The-First-crazy, more
like,
I-found-out-I-was-a-vampire-and-now-nothing-means-a-damn-crazy.
Other than that, I'm afraid he knows exactly what he's
doing."
"What's that? Trying to get
himself killed?" Dawn asked.
"Looks like," Buffy said
softly.
"Oh, Buffy! I'm so sorry. I
swear I'm going to kill him before he gets the chance. I'm going to
go down there and kick his ass. I'll have John go with me. We
can..."
"Don't!" Buffy said. "Let it
go, Dawn. He made it clear it's his life to do what he wants with
it, even if it gets him hurt...or worse."
"You don't mean that,
Buffy."
"I have to mean it, Dawn,"
she said, taking a deep breath. "I got to get off now, I'm driving,
okay? Please Dawn, don't do anything, let it
go."
Dawn
hesitated.
"Please Dawn? You've got to
promise me!" Buffy pleaded.
"Okay, Buffy. I promise, but
only for you," she conceded the backwards logic, keeping her fingers
crossed, just in case.
~~~
Then yesterday afternoon,
Clem had come over. When she didn’t answer the door, he had come in
anyway.
"Buffy?" Clem said, poking
his head into the bedroom.
She looked up at him slowly,
"Clem."
"What happened Buffy? I
didn’t hear your car last night. You saw him, didn’t
you?"
Buffy nodded, "Yeah, in
L.A., actually."
"What
happened?"
"I don’t want to talk about
it," she’d replied, turning away.
He didn’t say anything for a
minute.
"You sure? You know I’m a
good listener," Clem said softly.
"I know. I just can’t, not
right now."
"Okay, but if you want
to..."
"I know.
Thanks."
Clem turned to walk
away.
"He’s so lost," she said in
a small voice.
He came back into the
bedroom, and sat down on the bed, and took her hand. "I know. I can
go and talk to him. I’ll make him listen Buffy, even if he doesn’t
want to."
She shook her head, "No, you
can’t. Nobody can. He won’t listen. If he won’t listen to
me..."
"I know him Buffy. I know
how stubborn Spike can be."
"And don’t you think I do?"
"Of course you
do..."
"Then don’t. I’ve already
tried."
"You
sure?"
She
nodded.
"Okay, but if you change
your mind..."
"I know. Thanks,
Clem."
He’d left soon afterwards,
but only after she promised him that she’d get up and eat some soup
he’d brought over.
~~~
In the middle of the night
Buffy suddenly rose, and went to find her phone.
"Hello?" asked a sleepy
voice.
"I’m sorry, did I wake
you?"
"Buffy? Is that you? What’s
wrong?" asked Giles as he sat up and automatically reached for his
glasses from his bedside table.
Buffy explained to him in as
much and as little detail as possible, about the demon problem in
L.A. where William was working.
"It’s a bad scene. I’m
afraid for him Giles, afraid that he’s going to get himself killed.
These Gregorlines, they weren’t your every day run-of-the-mill type
demons."
Giles had gone into his
study and was now looking into his demon database, as they spoke.
"You’re right Buffy, these demons usually work as scouting agents
for a cult of demons named the Frashiks who usually only come around
when they’ve gotten word that a town is ripe for the picking; that
is, there’s no slayer to stop them."
"But it’s L.A., Giles! Not
exactly the size of Sunnydale."
"Yes, I realize that, but
these demons have tried to take over large cities before, it’s just
that they’ve yet to succeed."
"And you think that’s why
they’re in L.A. now?"
"I’m afraid that assumption
may very well be correct."
"Then I’ll have to take care
of them, I’m still The Slayer."
"A slayer," Giles corrected,
gently.
"A slayer," she said,
resigned.
"No Buffy, let me call
Wesley and make sure he knows. He’s got over a dozen slayers in L.A.
he can put on it."
"Shouldn’t he have already
known about it, then?"
"Yes, one would think
that."
"Well, I’m not going to wait
for Wesley to get his group of slayers involved, Giles. I just
can’t!" she said. William might very well have a death wish, but
she’d be damned if she’d make it easy for him.
"I’ll call Wesley to find
out right away, and get back to you."
"Giles, it’s 3:00am
here."
"Do you want me to wait,
Buffy?"
"No," she said, swallowing,
"I don’t."
"Then I’ll call you back,"
he said hanging up.
Twenty minutes later, the
phone rang.
"Giles?"
"Yes. I just talked to
Wesley. I had to track him down. It seems that him and his slayers
have been in Mexico for a couple of weeks taking care of a demon
problem in Encinada. The interesting thing about it, is that they’ve
been fighting the same type of demons; the
Gregorlines."
"Pretty convenient
coincidence, isn’t it?" Buffy asked.
"Yes, that’s exactly what we
thought, that they’d been set up to be out of town so that the
demons could establish a foothold in Los Angeles. Wesley is rounding
up the slayers as we speak, and bringing them back to L.A. He’ll
have them there before day’s end; by the evening for
sure."
"Did you tell him about
Ipso Facto?"
"Yes, he’ll have a couple of
slayers stationed in the bar tonight, with a couple more in the
outside, and another few patrolling the general
area."
"What did you tell him about
William?"
"You needn’t worry, Buffy. I
only told Wesley what he needed to know about, although I did warn
him that William now looked like Spike again, but that he most
definitely wasn’t a vampire. Of course, the slayers would know that
instinctively."
"Why would they even think
it? Most of them have never seen him, unless any of them were from
Sunnydale."
"You forget, William the
Bloody’s fame quite proceeds him. He is very much in the annals of
watcher’s textbooks, those that hadn’t been destroyed, and the newer
ones we’ve put together in the past seven years; along with
pictures, of course."
"Forget?" she
snorted.
"What I mean, Buffy," he
said gently, "is forgotten how he was, and is,
perceived outside of your very personal experiences with
him."
"Oh," Buffy said, her mind
retrieving and reviewing, in nanoseconds, the very vast
library of just what those very personal experiences with him
had been.
"Still, shouldn’t the damned
textbooks have been updated, to reflect that William the
Bloody just happened to save the world?"
"Of course, they have been.
I dare say though, I can’t imagine, given William’s current state of
mind, that he would want that sort of attention from the
slayers either."
Buffy sighed, the fight gone
out of her. "You’re right Giles. I’m sorry if I sounded
so..."
"Exasperating?" he
offered.
"I was going to say like a
bitch."
"I’d never think that of you
Buffy. I’ve got far too much respect for you. And Buffy, one more
thing?"
"Yes?"
"Don’t be so hard on
yourself."
A small snort escaped her
before she answered. "Easier said than done."
"I know, but try anyway. For
me?"
"I’ll
try."
"Good. I’ll let you know the
outcome, as soon as I hear from Wesley. Don’t worry, William’s
safety is the highest priority of the mission."
"I would’ve thought that
saving L.A. from the demon hoards would be the highest
priority."
"Well, next to that,
then."
"Fair enough. Thank you,
Giles. For everything."
"You’re welcome,
Buffy."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
NOVEMBER 17,
2009
MONDAY
6:00AM
Buffy startled as the clock
radio came on, alerting her to the time. Wearily, she got up out of
bed, and went to turn on the coffeemaker, like she did every
morning. Her head throbbed, and she felt light-headed. Grim faced,
she made a mental note to eat something before she left the house,
so that she wouldn’t fall over in an exhausted heap in front of her
class. She grabbed the coffeepot and poured the half-cup it had
already made, replaced it, and headed for the
showers.
By the time she got to
school, she was feeling a bit better, physically,
anyway.
Mrs. Carpello came down to
her classroom as she was getting her lesson plans in order, to tell
her that Lily wouldn’t be coming in that day.
"Her son Brian is home from
school with the flu. She said they had to take him to the hospital
on Saturday. She said he had an extremely high fever, and wound up
having a febrile seizure."
"Oh my God, is he okay?"
Buffy asked.
"He is now, but he’s still
pretty sick. She said he was fine on Friday evening, but by Saturday
morning he was sick as a dog; throwing up, fever, sore
throat..."
"Didn’t he get a
shot?"
"A flu shot? I don’t know,"
Mrs. Carpello answered. "Probably. All the schools were offering
them. Anyway, Elizabeth, I just wanted to let you know that Lily
wouldn’t be in, so if you need any help let me
know."
"Okay, but I’m sure we’ll be
fine. If you talk to Lily again, will you tell her I’ll give her a
call after school?"
"I
will."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Buffy went back to working
on her classroom plans, the ones she’d neglected to do over the
weekend, as she tried to ignore the pounding headache which was
coming back with a vengeance. Her stomach had also started to
hurt.
"Probably because you didn’t
put anything in it except coffee and toast for almost three days,"
she told herself.
8:30am
Buffy looked up at the
clock, then down at her watch, and made a face. Usually by this
time, half her class had already arrived. School officially started
at 8:50, but about half of the kids went to the All Day room before
school, so their parents could get to work on time, and almost all
the others were dropped off by now.
Getting up, she went out
into the hall, just in time to see about a dozen of her students
heading down to the classroom.
"Hey, I was beginning to
wonder where everyone was," she said.
"This is all of us from the
All Day room," Sally said.
"How many are there
usually?" Buffy asked.
"I don’t know, a lot
more!"
"Where is
everyone?"
"Sick."
"I’ll be right back," Buffy
said, turning to Sally. "You’re in charge for a few minutes,
okay?"
Sally stood up straight,
"I’ll make sure they get started on their morning work," she said,
seriously.
"I’m sure you will, but I’ll
be right back."
Buffy walked into the
office, and until Sue was off of the phone. It was a call-off by one
of the parents, she could tell.
"What’s up?" Sue asked
her.
"That’s what I was going to
ask, I’ve only got about a dozen students here this morning, where
is everyone?"
Sue just looked at her,
"Didn’t you seen the news this weekend?"
Buffy shook her head, "No, I
was...out of town."
"Well, that flu they’ve been
warning about, it’s hit, and hit hard. There are schools closing all
over from so many of the students being home sick. I’ve had over 30
calls already this morning," she said, turning, as the phone rang.
"And that’s probably another one."
"Hello? Yes, I see. I’ll let
Mrs. W. know."
"That’s another one, Seth is
out for the day."
Buffy shook her head, "I
don’t understand. What about the flu shots they all got a few weeks
ago?"
"I don’t know, sometimes
it’s too little, too late, or it’s another strain," Sue
said.
"Crap!"
"Yeah, you said
it."
"Well, guess I’d better go
and teach the students I do have here today."
"Okay. Listen; if any of the
kids start to get sick, just send ‘em down right away. I have a
feeling I’m going to be calling moms and dads to come get their
little angels all day."
"Looks like it," Buffy said,
as she walked back to her classroom.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
NOVEMBER 17,
2009
MONDAY
NOON
There was pounding,
insistent, painful pounding. There was also
ringing.
"Mr. Worthington? The front
desk needs to know if you’re going to be checking out or if you’re
staying on," said the motel maid’s voice through the
door.
William struggled to shake
off the sleep he fought so hard to find.
"Mr.
Worthington?"
"What is it?" he
called.
"It’s past check-out time,
and we were wondering if you’re staying another
day?"
William looked up at the
ceiling, trying to clear his head of the inevitable hangover. He
hesitated before answering; did he want to stay here? Lost?
And where was here?
Nowhere, came the answer. He was nowhere, with nothing of
himself to claim. Was this what his life had come to, hiding out in
a place even worse than the basement room of Ipso
Facto?
Chagrined, he slowly sat up.
"I must have overslept," he said, clearing his throat. "I’ll be down
to check-out in a short while."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
JULIAN
By lunchtime, three students
had gone home sick, and by the end of the day, she was down to five,
one of whom she was sure was getting sick as well. The headache she
had didn’t seem to respond to anything she threw at it, and although
her stomach felt a bit better, her throat was now scratchy, and she
felt feverish.
"Psychosomatic," she told
herself. After all, being in a room full of sick people all
day...and another reason she would never have made it in the medical
profession.
Mrs. Carpello called a
meeting for after school.
"Think she’s going to close
the school tomorrow?" Marilyn asked Buffy as they walked downstairs
to join the others.
"One can only
hope."
They walked in and took
their seats. One of the teachers was already
speaking.
"...we’ve had more than half
our students out ill today, and I think that if we’re anything
representative of the county at all..."
"It is," Mrs. Carpello said,
"it's been on the news all afternoon. Most all the schools have had
an extreme number of absences. I expect that the school board will
hear from the county and state health departments this evening, and
close all the schools tomorrow, and possibly for the rest of the
week in order to contain it."
"That will be a lot of
school to make up," Marilyn said.
"True," Mrs. Carpello
answered, "but we have more latitude here, than at the public
schools. We’re small enough that we can find out what will be most
convenient for the majority of families; even if it means a couple
of weekend days. If not, there’s always the option of making spring
break shorter, or going another week or more into summer
break."
Groans were
heard.
"I know you don’t want that,
no one does, but that's where it stands for now. The important thing
right now is to get this outbreak contained before we have 100% of
our students sick."
Everyone nodded in
agreement.
"So, how will we know about
tomorrow?" Marilyn asked.
"It should be on the evening
or late news. I would say, don’t plan on being here tomorrow, unless
you hear otherwise from me. As far as Wednesday, I know it’s a lot
to ask, but I need each of you to call the parents tomorrow, and
find out how many of your students would still be staying home. Then
you'll report back to me. After I get a count from everyone, I’ll be
able to tell you. If more than 50% are well enough to return, we’ll
resume with classes. If not, you’ll repeat the calls on Wednesday
and Thursday."
"That’s a lot of calling,"
Buffy said. "Each of us will have to call something like twenty sets
of parents to find out how the kids are doing, and then call them
back to let them know one way or the other? That’s forty some phone
calls, and it’s not like we'll just be able to just ask, ‘What’s
your child's status? Thank you and good-bye.’ None of us will be
able to do that."
"I know it is, Elizabeth.
But you can also ask them to call and let you know if their child is
well enough to return, and also, I’ll update the message board, as
well as the answering machine, so one phone call should do it. Per
day, that is."
"Mrs. Carpello, Elizabeth
has a point," Sue said, "I don't know of any other school whose
teachers have such a close, personal relationship with their
students and families. However, under the circumstances, I think
that you should utilize the automated phone system to both notify
them of the school closings, and to ask them to leave us a message
about their child's health. If it’s something serious, then they can
call the teacher directly, or ask that we call them back. I also
think that the message board should be utilized. There’s an easy way
to set up a questionnaire regarding if their child is still ill, and
what day they expect them to be well enough to return. I can stay
after and set that up, if you wish."
"You all like that idea
better?" Mrs. Carpello asked.
Everyone nodded,
enthusiastically.
"Very well, thank you for
the excellent idea, Sue. I’d still expect to hear from all of you
tomorrow, to keep me updated. I suspect that you’ll be hearing from
many of your student’s parents, regardless."
Buffy let out a sigh of
relief. The meeting was over a few minutes later. She and Marilyn
walked out to their cars together.
"I’m glad you said
something, Elizabeth. Otherwise we would’ve spent all day tomorrow
and tonight on the phone."
Buffy coughed, "I’m just
glad Sue spoke up. At least it didn’t make it just sound like I was
whining."
They stopped at Marilyn’s
car.
"Well, guess I’ll see you
later in the week, then," Buffy said.
Marilyn nodded, "Yeah,
maybe. By the way, how are you feeling? You don’t look so good
yourself."
"I’m okay, just have a
headache I can’t seem to shake today. I’ll be
alright."
"You’d better be," she said,
shaking her finger at her, "somebody has to stay
well."
"I’ll be fine. Same goes for
you!"
Marilyn laughed, and crossed
her fingers, as she walked off to her car.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
3:30PM
Thinking of the rich soup
that Clem had left her, Buffy reluctantly stopped at a convenience
store to buy something quick, light, and more importantly,
microwaveable. She knew she had next to nothing in the house, but
couldn’t stand the thought of going to a regular supermarket. She
bought some canned soup, a loaf of bread, yogurt, and some 7-Up,
promising herself, she would actually purchase some real food
sometime this week.
On her way out, she ran into
one of the parents of one of her ill students in the parking lot,
who had also come for quick ‘sick’ foods, such as popsicles,
applesauce, and ginger ale. Katie’s mom kept her talking in the
light drizzle, for over ten minutes.
By the time Buffy arrived
home, she felt like she didn’t even have the energy to get out of
the car. Just opening the bottle of 7-Up seemed like an effort.
Still, she poured herself part of a glassful, and took it to her
bedroom. Telling herself she just needed a little nap, she lay down
on top of the blankets, and fell asleep.
Three hours later, she woke,
teeth chattering, and shaking with chills. It took all of her effort
to pull the covers around her.
A couple of more hours
later, she once again awoke, drenched in sweat, and nauseous.
Yanking off the covers, she sat up slowly.
"This can’t be good," she
said feeling her forehead and wondering where she’d put her
thermometer the last time she’d used it.
Taking a sip of the warm
7-Up only served to suddenly make her want to throw up. Somehow, she
made it to the bathroom, and threw up into the sink. Her
sweat-drenched clothing was making her chilled again, and she sat
down on the toilet, and with effort, pulled them off. Teeth clenched
from the effort, she put on her nightgown, and robe, and started off
to the kitchen.
"Damnit!" she said, finding
only one aspirin left in the bottle. Gritting her teeth, she
swallowed it down with some water, hoping that it would stay down
long enough to do her some good. She grabbed a bucket from the
laundry room, and went back to bed.
It wasn’t to be the case; no
sooner had she lain down, than she had to throw up again. Leaning
over, she emptied the scant contents of her stomach into the bucket.
Covering herself up, she lay
there shaking with chills again, as her fever climbed higher and
higher.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
LOS
ANGELES
IPSO FACTO
8:00PM
Miranda hadn’t said much to
Spike since he’d come on tonight. She’d been more than ready to have
it out with him, if he’d showed up in the state he’d been in when
he’d left. However, he’d been nothing but polite, subdued, and even
sober, since he’d started his shift. That in and of itself was
strange, but she kept quiet, watching him from a
distance.
William was
distracted all night. He’d had a vague, but gnawing sense of unease,
starting with the drive back to Los Angeles, and only increasing as
the night wore on. Thinking that it must be demon trouble brewing as
the source, he kept careful watch on the place. If anything, though,
the demon population seemed to be quite light tonight, and those
there, weren’t the types usually given to violence.
However, more than once
during the evening, William had the distinct feeling that he
was being watched, but scanning the bar did little to ascertain
whomever or whatever was watching him.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
JULIAN
9:00PM
Buffy awoke, sweating
profusely. She somehow managed to get out of her cocoon of blankets,
and fought the arms of her robe until she had gotten out of it as
well. Trying to stand, she swayed on her feet, and sat back down.
Her head thundered with the sound of her own blood pumping in her
ears.
Slowly, she teetered to the
bathroom, and looked in the medicine cabinet for the thermometer; it
was there. She stuck it under her tongue, almost making herself gag,
and took her temperature. It buzzed, and she took it out, holding it
away to read the numbers. 103.9 degrees it read. She took it again,
not believing it.
103.9 degrees, it read for
the second time.
Buffy stood in the bathroom,
trying to remember what she knew about breaking a fever. Running
cool water over her wrists was the first thing that came to mind.
Wasn’t that what her mother had done when she was a child? Or had
she read it somewhere? She turned on the tap to cool, and forced her
wrists into what felt like the icy stream for a few minutes.
However, her temperature didn’t show any change when she took it
again a few minutes later.
Glancing over at the
adjacent door to the spare room, that had most recently been
William’s room, an idea came to her feverish brain. Opening the
door, she walked across the room to the closet door leading to the
annex. Holding onto the walls for support, she slowly made her way
up the narrow stairs to the attic for the first time since William
had left. Her breath came in shallow gasps as she labored to reach
the top. Once there, she swayed from dizziness, and just nearly
managed to not fall backwards down the stairs.
As she’d suspected, the
sealed off room was much cooler. Hopefully, it would bring her
temperature down; she just had to stay there for a while.
In the pitch dark, and with
her inherent slayer sense of space diminished by illness, Buffy
stumbled over the boxes William had been looking through, only
righting herself seconds before crashing into the windows. She stood
there a minute, leaning against the wall, panting. Finally, as she
regained a modicum of her equilibrium, she inched her hand up the
wall, until it made contact with the large metal ring on one of the
vertical slated windows. Pulling it hard, the shades opened up
across most of the room, illuminating the space.
Slowly she made her way over
to the couch. As she collapsed onto it, a cloud of dust billowed up,
making her cough. Reluctant now to lie on the dirty couch she eyed
the floor, her foot sweeping over the inviting coolness of its
surface.
Scooting off the couch, she
leaned back against it for a while, but exhaustion and dizziness was
making her light-headed, and soon gravity won out. Buffy stretched
out on the floor, the coolness feeling good to her feverish
skin.
At eye level, she caught
sight of a half-empty bottle of water. The floor sloped slightly in
that direction, but something underneath the couch was stopping it
from rolling; something she’d never seen there before. Curious, she
moved the bottle aside, and began to pull.
It kept coming and coming: a
large, flat object, wrapped in brown paper. Somehow she got it out,
and with one hand, started to tear the wrapping off the back. When
she had torn it all she could, she managed to turn it over, propping
it upright against the couch. Half of the paper came down, and she
pulled the rest of it to the bottom.
In the moonlight of the
room, for the first time, she saw the picture William had painted in
art class for her that summer. It was of her, and it was beautiful.
Standing with her back to the viewer, wearing a light blue dress,
which seemed to gently billow in the warm breeze, she stood at the
water’s edge of Clear Lake at Fuller’s Resort.
This must have been the
surprise he’d hinted at this summer. He had already given her a
couple of smaller still life’s he had painted - one of fruit, and
one of a wine bottle and glass, which she’d hung up next to the
kitchen table.
***
"I’m working on another one. It’s quite a bit
larger," he’d told her.
"What is it?" she’d
asked.
He’d smiled, arching his
eyebrows; "It’s a surprise. You’ll have to wait and
see."
"Meanie," she said,
flopping down on his lap, "you’ve got me all curious now. How big is
it? What’s it of? Tell me, tell me!"
He laughed; a
full-hearted laugh, which lit up his face, and always made her
joyous to see. Then he’d kissed her, "Uh-uh. I won’t reveal state
secrets that easily, missy."
"Oh no?" she teased,
kissing his neck slowly, the way she knew would have the most
effect.
"Uh-uh," he’d replied,
though not quite as firmly this time. "And as for how big it is," he
said grinning, as he’d grabbed her hand and put it over the bulge in
his pants.
"Wow! That is big!"
Buffy said, eyes wide in mock horror.
"Come ‘ere you saucy
wench!" he’d said in a low sexy voice. Still kissing her, he’d stood
up, and carried her to the bedroom.
***
"Oh, William," she
whispered, throat tight and tears coming to her eyes, knowing he’d
probably never see her that way again.
END CHAPTER
168
CHAPTER 169 – CLARITY OF PURPOSE
NOVEMBER 18, 2009
TUESDAY
12:30AM
William picked up the bottle, then put it down again. All night
he’d been trying to resist, knowing he’d done enough drinking in the
past few days, to last for quite a while. At least, it felt like it
should. However, the abrupt lack of alcohol was now leaving
him feeling shaky and disoriented.
"Bugger this," he mumbled, as he gave in and poured himself a
shot. Downing it in one gulp, the relief was short lived, as a
severe burning sensation in his stomach nearly doubled him over. He
banged the glass down on the edge of the counter, and missed.
Ignoring the shattered glass, he frantically yanked open the
refrigerator door, and grabbed an open pint of half-and-half, and
drank it down from the carton. He gritted his teeth, nearly gagging
on the taste of the almost spoilt milk, but his stomach felt
better.
Miranda turned upon hearing the breaking glass, as did most of
those at the bar. She turned to look at the man standing in front of
her, and he nodded to the bottle of beer she’d been holding in her
hand. "Oh yeah. Sorry, here you go," she said, distractedly.
William was squatted down, cleaning up the glass when she walked
up behind him.
"What’s the matter?"
"Nothing."
"Spike?" she persisted.
"It’s nothing, just broke a glass," he said lightly, looking up
at her with bloodshot blue eyes.
"Yeah sure, and that just happens to be the third nothing
you’ve broken tonight."
William stood up in a quick movement, causing Miranda to move
back. Angrily, he stared at her, then pulled out his wallet and put
a ten-dollar bill in the cash register. "There, that’ll pay for your
bloody glasses."
Eyes narrowing, she met his stare. "I’m not worried about the
fucking glasses, you big jerk. I’m worried about you!"
"Sorry," he said, after a moment. "It’s just a bad night, is
all."
"You know, you’re really so damned cliche. Then again, it’s
almost Zen like, if you think about it. Man works at bar, man
becomes one with bar."
"Miranda, what in God’s name are you talking about?" he
asked, turning to face her.
"Want me spell it out for you?"
"Only if it’ll keep you from prattling on in some sort of secret
female code," he shot back, frustrated.
"Okay, how’s this? You’re a drunk, Spike. A drunk working at a
bar."
He turned, slamming the palms of his hands on the edge of the
counter. "I’m not a drunk," he said, through clenched teeth. William
could feel the muscles in his back and arms twitching, much like
they did right before fighting demons. He rolled his head and felt
the satisfying cracking of his neck’s vertebrae.
"No? Well, you’re either doing a really good impression of one,
or you’re this close to becoming one," she said, holding up her
fingers an inch apart.
"I’m not, I’ve just been...I’m not!"
Miranda looked at him, until he looked away. Putting her hand on
his arm, she asked, "How long has it been since you’ve eaten
something?" He started to protest, but she stopped him. "I mean
really eaten a half-way decent meal? Not just a bag of chips or some
shitty junk food?"
He looked up at her, his mouth moving as he tried to recall.
Finally he shook his head, "I don’t know. But that doesn’t mean I’m
a drunk," he said, straightening up, with as much dignity as he
could muster.
"Maybe not, but it sure looks like you don’t give a crap enough
about yourself to even eat something! I mean, come on
Spike. That’s pretty fucking basic personal maintenance; right after
washing oneself," she said, resisting
adding a comment about the none-too-fresh odor he was sporting this
evening.
He gave Miranda a hard stare. "You done?" William asked
tersely.
"For now," she returned blithely.
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2:00AM
He couldn’t take being there anymore. For the past hour and a
half, all he’d done was mutter to himself, and try to avoid both
Miranda, and taking another drink.
He walked down to her end of the bar, and stood waiting for
Miranda to acknowledge his presence. She didn’t. Instead, never
breaking stride, she continued to wipe down the latest spill with a
bar rag.
William exhaled softly. She wasn’t going to make this any
easier.
Finished, she threw the rag underneath the bar. Slowly she looked
up at him, as she took the cigarette that hung from her mouth, and
ground it out in the nearest ashtray.
"You want something, Spike?"
"Um, yeah. Actually," he said, clearing his throat. "I was
wondering if you’d mind if I knocked off early, seeing it’s rather
slow. There’s some things I need to..."
"Go ahead," she answered a bit too sharply, "Mike and I can close
up."
"Right then," he said.
William reached for his coat under the bar, hesitating a moment
when his hand started to pull the near empty flask out of his
pocket. It had been his usual habit to fill it up at the end of his
shift. Not tonight, though. Standing up, he slung his coat over his
shoulder. With a short nod to Miranda, he left the bar through the
door leading to the kitchen and basement.
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5:30AM
LOS ANGELES
As if the unintended and very short twilight sleep had cleared
his head, William suddenly awoke, with clarity of purpose he hadn’t
felt for a long while. He packed up a small bag of his belongings,
and headed out, after first leaving a note on the bar for
Miranda.
A couple of hours later, with the morning sun now bright in the
sky, William turned into the Wittman’s driveway in San Marcos.
Wearily, he turned off the engine, laying his head on the steering
wheel for a few minutes. Finally, he got out of the car, and grabbed
what he’d brought with him from the back seat and went upstairs.
"Home sweet home," William said softly, as he let himself into
his apartment. "More or less."
Going directly into the bathroom, only stopping long enough to
throw his bag onto the bed, he stripped off the clothes he was
wearing and got into the shower. It was a small luxury, but feeling
the decent water pressure for a change, made him feel better.
William chose a favorite pair of soft gray sweat pants to wear,
comforted by the memory that Elizabeth had bought them for him. And
disregarding anything black, a long-sleeved, blue T-shirt chosen by
her as well, went over his head.
Going out to the kitchen, he looked around for something he could
make himself to eat. Holding his breath, he opened the refrigerator,
prepared to smell spoiled milk. He let out his breath, curious that
there was nothing there except for an old half-gallon of water, and
two unopened jars - one of salsa, one of applesauce.
Luckily, he found a can of chicken noodle soup in the cupboard,
and warmed it up. To him, the little pan of soup smelled delicious.
William spooned half of it into his mouth with a ladle before it
even finished cooking, burning his tongue in the process. Finding
half a package of unopened, saltine crackers was a bonus. He quickly
discovered that the hot salsa alone was too spicy for his stomach,
but combined with applesauce, and on a cracker...voila! As
far as William was concerned, it was the finest haute cuisine.
He took his meal out to the living room, turning on the radio for
company. The strains of a classical piece he hadn't heard for a long
time filled the room, making him wistful for the time when he still
believed in all the innocence and beauty such music represented. A
time before he knew of all the ugly and evil things in the world,
things to which he'd become a part.
Sighing heavily, he put down his plate. No use putting off what
he'd come back here to do. Going into the bedroom, he knelt down,
and pulled a small journal from underneath his bed. Opening it up,
he found the little card tucked between the pages.
Taking the card with him into the living room, he located his
cell phone, and turned it on.
After dialing a series of numbers, he finally heard a tinny ring
on the other end.
"Hello," said the familiar voice.
"Mr. Giles?"
"Yes, who is this?"
"William. William Worthington."
There was a moment's pause, when William thought that maybe they
had been disconnected. "Mr. Giles?"
"Yes, sorry. I'm here," he heard the other man clearing his
throat, "What can I do for you, William?"
"I think...I need your help."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
4:30PM
LONDON
Giles hung up the phone, and reflecting on the last half-hour’s
conversation with William. Looking over the notes he’d scribbled as
they talked, he took a fresh notebook out of his bottom drawer, and
transferred his notes, filling in other things he remembered, as
well as questions he wanted to ask William later. On the notebook’s
cover, in permanent marker he wrote the words, "William Worthington,
2009 (Formerly William the Bloody, aka Spike"), then put it into his
locked file cabinet.
He sat back down at his desk, and pressed the button to the outer
office.
"Yes Mr. Giles?" Asked his secretary.
"Get me British Airways."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
8:30AM
JULIAN
The floor no longer seemed so nice, as Buffy awoke, shaking with
the chills. She tried to move, but her muscles wouldn’t cooperate.
Never in all her days of slaying had she felt so utterly helpless
and miserable. Teeth chattering, and tears rolling down her face,
she somehow pulled the brown paper wrapping over to her and tried to
curl it around her as best she could.
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8:30AM
SAN MARCOS
William knew the next thing he had to do, the most important
thing, would be even harder than the phone call to Giles had been.
Glancing at the clock, he wished he’d come to the decision to go and
speak to Elizabeth earlier, that way he could’ve possibly seen her
this morning. Still, perhaps it wouldn’t have been such a good idea.
He didn’t want to only talk to her for a few minutes, before she had
to go off to work. It wouldn’t have been fair to either of them,
especially not her; he owed her more than just a few minutes.
Nerves and exhaustion set in, and he decided that the best thing
he could for now would be to get some sleep. Going into the bedroom,
he set the alarm clock to awaken him a couple of hours before then.
Before crawling under the covers, he reached over and pulled the
small box off of his bedside table and opened it up. Wistfully, he
looked at Elizabeth’s necklace and ring for a while, his fingers
tracing the outline of them. With a sigh, he replaced the lid.
Turning on his side, he pulled her
pillow near to him, and was soon asleep.
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2:00PM
JULIAN
Buffy didn’t know how much time had passed, only that she had
stopped shaking, as her fever had once again risen. Her brain felt
like it was baking inside her own skull, and the sun, now steaming
into the room, wasn’t helping. Her ears were ringing, too. They’d
done that earlier, but she vaguely thought it might be the phone
ringing somewhere in the house, and cursed herself for not having
thought to bring it upstairs with her.
So much for cell phones being lifesavers.
Water. She needed water. Lifting her head up a little, she saw
the half empty bottle that had been under the couch a couple of feet
away. The effort made her head pound, but she persevered, and
reached for the bottle.
Stale or not, the water tasted wonderful to her parched throat,
wet and wonderful. Even though she could’ve drank many times that
amount, she made herself stop after drinking only about half. For
one thing, if drinking it made her throw up, she wouldn’t have any
water left up here at all.
A few minutes later, she rationalized that if it hadn’t made her
throw up yet, it wasn’t likely to, and she was so thirsty that
drinking the rest was all she’d been thinking about. Also, she
rationalized that if the rest made her feel better, she might be
able to get to the stairs and at least go down them on her butt.
She reached for the bottle and it tipped over, rolling out of her
grasp. William’s picture, which had prevented it from rolling under
the couch and to the back wall, was moved just enough to one side,
so that the bottle easily kept rolling.
"No, no," Buffy croaked, trying to reach in time. She sat up, and
tried to get to her knees, but she collapsed before she’d even
gotten a foot. Hot, angry tears choked her, as she lay back down on
the hard floor.
The last thing she remembered was staring at the picture of the
cool waters of Clear Lake as she passed out.
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2:00PM
SAN MARCOS
William opened his eyes as the alarm went off, confused
momentarily by his surroundings. As his eyes took in the familiar
room, he exhaled and relaxed back against the pillows.
His eyes nervously darted to the clock to check the time.
Elizabeth would be home in less than two hours. His heart pounded
nervously at the prospect that he was actually going to the house to
see her; talk to her.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Standing in front of the bathroom mirror, combing through his
hair with a wet comb, William studied himself for a moment. In his
head, he heard the words she’d spoken.
"Who are you? I look at you and I don’t see William anymore, and
I don’t see Spike! I don’t know what I see anymore."
William wasn’t sure what or who he saw either; hadn’t for
quite some time. That was the problem, and he hoped that the wheels
he’d set in motion earlier might somehow be one of the steps to
rectifying that; if not, then what was the purpose of his
existence?
All William knew, was that he had to see Elizabeth; talk
to her, and make some sort of amends for the other night, even if
only to give her the opportunity to tell him to bugger off
face-to-face, and with him sober. She’d come to Los Angeles to find
him. She’d come to him, and all he could do was to throw her
feelings back in her face, in every imaginable way; from insulting
her, to practically...
He also needed to tell her that he would be going away for a
while, for both their sakes. He wondered would she even care at this
point, or feel relieved?
Either way, he had to do what he must - to be able to be
hers, if she would still have him - to be a man. More
importantly, to be his own man for once, if that was
even possible. And as to that, William had his serious doubts.
After dressing in a pair of blue jeans and a dark green pullover,
he went into the kitchen and turned on a teapot. As he waited for
it, he looked in the cabinets for something else to eat. In one of
them, near the back, he spotted half a pint of Jack Daniels. He
pulled it forward, and put it on the counter. Uncapping it, he
poured a healthy shot into the teacup, and lifted it to his mouth,
then hesitated at the last moment.
"Oh bugger it!" William said, pouring it out in the sink,
instead. The smell of it, washed over him, and he could imagine,
even craved, the calming effect it would’ve had on him. Still, he
couldn’t chance going to the house not being completely sober. How
could he expect Elizabeth to listen to him, if she thought he needed
alcohol in order to talk to her?
The time for running away was over.
END CHAPTER 169
CHAPTER 170 - VAMPIRES DON’T WEAR SHORTS...
NOVEMBER 18, 2009
TUESDAY
4:00PM
William slowed the car down as he turned onto the
road leading up to the house, fumbling in the glove compartment for
the remote. He hit the button as he neared the gate, and it opened.
It always struck his as ingenious how it just looked like the road
dead-ended in a stand of trees. until they moved, revealing the road
beyond.